Happy Halloween To All!

Today is the day my sister goes for her MRI to see if she has a Brain Tumor. So my thoughts are going to be elsewhere for the day. They are trying to rule things out. First they told her she had Lymphoma, which we still do not know. They also told her she has a cyst on her heart, which they do know. Now this, I do not know why they or if it is all apart of lymphoma.

My uncle they found out about a year and a half ago has lymphoma. Tumors pop up on him all the time, they remove them. They also said he had this and that wrong with him.

So from the moment my Mom found out, she has been, we'll say somewhat terrified. Really the first day, but I got her to calm down. Just talked with her, she explained my sister's feeling's on Chemo. I told her you have to respect it. My sister wants none of that, which I understand, she watched my Dad suffer and does not want to go through the destruction of the other organs. Radiation and chemo tend to have that effect. Why some people say they are cancer free for 10 years, and other's it destroys them, is anyone's guess. I guess it must be how aggressive the cancer cells are, and the strength of drugs. I do know my Mom will have a very hard time if anything happens to Bea. She is the oldest at 51. Mom's going to be 70 early December. My sister has a heart of gold, she would do anything she could for you, as long as you were a good person. Tough life, yes she has had that. Nobody has it easy, some worse than other's. My thoughts and prayers are with her today, like everyday, just more. If you read this and have a moment say a little thought or prayer for her.

 Thanks!

darlyn

It's Sunday Morning,

And today so far is just off to a wonderful start. Ask my son to do one thing for me and next thing you know it, it's argument city. In a nut shell. Why do things take that kind of turn? Is it because one is waking up and the other is overtired? All I can say is I GUESS I AM ONE OF THE WORST MOM'S IN THE WORLD!  How did I miss that?

Is it the fact I didn't give into every little whim when he was a child? Wanting him to respect his elders. Can today society change a person that much? What is shown on T.V., video games, peers, what? I know in my heart I raised him right, he is a good person inside. But this AM, really said some hurtful, untrue things. I feel like I was stabbed in the heart, right now just feeling numb. Or maybe just to cry.

Can a disorder really have wires crossed in the brain, or not connected? I am really feeling at a loss right now. And for all that I have been through, I usually stay upbeat and try and pick other people up. Have them look at the sunny-side of life. Whether it be off the wall comment who knows, just what ever seems to come naturally. That's me, little ol'silly me.

I'll get over it, I'll just remember the ATTITUDE blog. And my thankfulness for everyday I'm here, for my family and friends. That keeps me trucking! I may not be as fast as I use to be, but I can still move, and shake. I embarrass my daughter sometimes, she says I'm too old. I keep reminding her your as old as you feel, and I do not feel that old. I'm still a big kid at heart. She is slowly coming around, she should after 23 years.

I am hoping for an apology when my son wakes up. I will not be bringing anything up. He needs to be man enough, big enough to do so. Otherwise I will be disappointed in him (feeling that inside). He is soon to be 27, he's a Man, and a Man does not speak to his Mother that way.

I am probably somewhat at fault, for responding back. I should of just walked away. Been the bigger person. I'm only human, I make mistakes.

Here's hoping for a better day, then the morning started.

I hope the SUN IS SHINING DOWN ON YOU TODAY!

ATTITUDE

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have; and that is our attitude... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it.

By Charles Swindol

Chapter 2 of stuck at home: Isn't my life just sooo exciting? I bet anyone reading is hanging on by a thread! lol. Guess what??? I get to be stuck home most of the day tomorrow/today also. Just can't wait. Story of my life for now. I know one day it will change, until then my life is just kind of boring. Don't know why my internal clock is off. Huh! It's helping our son, and finding a full-time job is harder anymore, more so in Michigan. So that is what I am Thankful for, as he is too.

 My Angel had a nice Birthday, made her a marble cake with Chocolate frosting, and of course we had to have ice cream. Man have you seen the price of ice cream? Almost $5.00 and you don't even get the half a gallon you use to get (it was a heads up from the guy working in the store). I got her favorite...Mint Chocolate Chip! Put 23 candles on her cake and we all laughed..when she blew out the candles....I went cough.....cough...cough...look at all the smoke..She thought it was funny. Didn't look like as much as when Dad blew out his cake the month before with  48! LOL....Smoke dectectors...fire dept....J/K...

You have to enjoy what you do have, and it's family, and that includes the hairy ones! (I know I shouldn't talk about myself)....ha ha ha.

Enjoy your middle of the week! I know I will....

It's Monday!!! Yippie!! Stuck home for most of the day. I have to wait for hubby to get home, so I can head off to work. OH Boy! Somewhat of a dreary weekend in MI, although the sun did shine a smidge yesterday. Missed some of it. Couldn't fall asleep Saturday night for nothing. Guess my internal clock is off. What else is new...ha ha ha! Well this butt needs to get something happening today, so I feel more productive. Have a good day all! And I hope the Sun is shinning in your area! It's not here. Can tell old Man Winter is lurking around the corner! Brrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Today 23 ago, I was in a GREAT Deal of pain. But I tell you what, it was well worth it. You see that is the day I had my sweet daughter who is now....gulp....23 and the biggest sweetie! A heart of Gold. God has kept her around knowing she is a terrific little Angel. How many people do you know that get hit by a car going 45 mph while crossing the street, and only come away with a broken ankle, scar on her forehead (from gluing the wound shut) and bumps and bruises? That is just mainly surface stuff. I know internally it's has been very traumatic for her. She doesn't let in show, she is a afraid to drive though. For fear of doing it to someone else. But a Mom knows. I just thank God for everyday I have with her. I remember writing a poem/story to my husband that I wanted a clone of my own! We already had a son, which was his clone...So I thought I'd be cute and say it was time we have another blessing in our family. Really whether if our next would be a boy or a girl, just hoping for 10 little fingers,10 little toes. That's what we said to the doctor at each delivery. Then we were informed if we just had a boy or girl. I love the surprise of not knowing, plus back in the day ultra sounds were not performed like they are now. The pictures would of been cool to have. The only pictures, are from the outside, the big ol'belly! But today my little Angel is 23, and I can not believe how the time has flown by so quickly. Seems like only yesterday, she was my little baby girl. Happy Birthday to our very special Angel!!

Wow, October 1st. already. Most of the day I will be stuck at home. Suppose to go for an Ultra-Sound, no way of getting there. So my son gets to use my car again. I guess I will change the appt. for another day. Then when he gets home it's off to work I go. Got more done at work today then I thought I would, which is cool!! Can't believe how cold it is already, I'm freezing and the heat isn't turned on yet, BWAAAH! Oh well saves on the gas bill. They were high enough last year, and I hear this winter is suppose to be colder. I need to move somewhere, where it stays warm and sunny all the time. I suppose I can put plenty of layers on, and afghans to keep nice and warm. Maybe some thermals. My husband talked about getting me heated socks or slippers, now I know I'm getting old! He's always warm, he says it's because he has more brown fat than I. I guess I have to believe him since a doctor was even amazed when he had his appendix taken out. All the layers he had to cut through. Learn new things all the time. I suppose I should go and take a nap, just in case I can hitch a ride to have my Ultra-Sound done. Night all, Have a GREAT Thursday! :)

Well, stuck at home again! :(  Hopefully my son will be getting a vehicle to drive so he can go full-time, and I do feel like my independence is gone. Done it before, but that was our choice, when the kids were growing up. Not at my age should this be happening, the things we do for our children. So the moving of the furniture went well except when the long dresser got moved upstairs. My bathroom door now has, let's just say some scratches (I really mean a couple of holes). So far I haven't talked to my hubby, he was asleep when I got home from work at 1:30am and I was just falling asleep when he got up. 4:45am. So I'm sure I'll hear something this evening....The only thing I can say.....is OOOOPS! I've always wanted to get the six panel doors, will just get them one by one...And it will give the interior a whole new look!!!!! YEAH!!!  :)  I was thinking about it, so now it probably will become reality. Like I do not have enough projects going on right now. But altleast one is just about done. My daughter's room, feels good when you are getting things done, even better when they are! Just have to pick out mattress and box spring, sheets, comforter, and curtain or valance. Then that room is all done. Yes, one project down, 6 more to go.....

I posted a poem-story about A Dog's Plea under reviews. If you are a pet owner, this might give you some comfort. It helped us, but still makes me cry when I read it. My old Boss sent it to me when we had to put our Collie down. (That's why I'm looking a little more hairy). To me it's a Dog's perspective on life. I hope if you read it, you enjoy, or it helps. I swore I would not have another dog again, now I have two.....Connie and Cody..They are such good doggie's, I wish they could tell me about their lives before coming to live with us.

YEAH!!!! I am so happy. Finally, finally used the carpet cleaner in my daughter's room. She finally got everything out. Now don't go stopping by because it looks like a HUGE Tornado came through. Stuff, or as my son would put it CRAP is all over the place. Of course when he moved back home, he didn't bring any crap with him. It's all mine....Does that mean I can throw out some of the crap?? If I get two things accomlished before heading off to work, I will be extremely happy. Her tall dresser goes in first. Then we'll figure it out from there. I did also play handy women today! Boy am I good. Figured out a solution to a broken part, had to rigg it to work. Go ahead pat me on the back! :) lol I don't know why my husband gave me a small tool set years back. He knows I can be handy, I just don't play around with live wires. I leave that one up to him. Although he cut the power off to an outside light to replace (only by the switch mind you) I questioned him about it, he said "No there's no power going to it" I wasn't so sure....He found out there still was. I didn't utter those words, like I t*ld you so. Just a small zap! Made him jump alittle, good thing he didn't fall off the ladder. He would of landed on me. OUCH!

Well, today feels like a lazy day! But I did get a few things done around here. Just with no sunshine, just makes me want to eat....Why is that? Or is it just me. I did some organizing, and moving of some furniture (shhhh, don't tell my doctors). But it has to get done, I did do it with help from my daughter so not too much guilt there. I HAVE to get her room done, all that's left is the shampooing part. Let it dry, and put the real heavy stuff in. That I'm not moving, then I will hurt my back. I had enough of that pain. Just need to be careful with what I do. Then her room will look soooo nice, I'll have to post a picture or two when it's done. Well, that's about all for this dreary day in MI.

Well, it's Tuesday and I am stuck at home. BWAAAAHH! :(  Son had to use my car to go to work. It just drives me crazy when this happens. I need to run back to the store I was working at yesterday. And I was suppose to go to P.T. So I either do these things when he gets home, the store that is. Which will be late, but needs to get done. I have to be thankful he has a new job, as Michigan's unemployment rate is at 15.2%. The things we do for our kids, but here I am on the back burner......again....But like I said Thankful he is working. I am very happy for him! I guess it's time to do things around here. There is good in being stuck at home, just need to get that wild hair to get me going.....ha ha...

Whew, that took some thinking to post another photo. Since I do not do it all the time, it takes me awhile to figure it out. Guess I need to practice more so I can become a pro. The last two (so far) were taken with the Kodak Z712 I wrote a review about. Very easy to get on the computer, just have to learn about uploading. So I won't have to use my brain so much..lol.... I even took pictures of my Bathroom, not sure how much more my thinker can handle today. ha ha. Will post soon, seeing how I entered the Moen contest, and the fixtures are Moen.